i first got back 3 tests scores over the past few weeks. the 1st was above average, the next two were around average level. then everything fell apart, in the last 2 days.

yesterday got back 1 maths/stats paper. crushingly below average. then today... got back an essay, again kinda far behind average. wats more, according to figures given by the lecturer, i believe i got one of the lowest marks in the cohort, if not the lowest. devastating defeat. and to tink these 2 modules were my most confident ones at the start of this sem. then coupled with other small stuff that happened today, the dreaded loser mentality is creeping in.

my 1st exam starts in approx 3 weeks time. I have to wake up, NOW. one more strike against me, and i'm out.

me at 11:29 PM